the dreadful reality creeps in slowly as the days pass. my armor and first line of defense - will and steadfastness is being tested. Just as my health is being battered by the elements of the third world: pollution, allergens, humidity and unbearable heat, so does my life's compass is being swayed to deriliction by backward elements of Philippine society. I would love to shit and puke everytime i flinch on how things work in my land of birth. It is inevitable that i end up self examining ourselves as a people when coming from a society that has worked well in many ways but utterly fail in our case. The slower pace of time, the satisfaction for the 2nd rate and mediocrity, and most especially the obsession of our people to technicalities and missing out the essence of things. I could care less and forgive ourselves easy, however one thing i can never forgive is how we refuse to reinvent our collective attitudes and worse defend and be complacent to these realities that most of us are self aware. We need aggression as a people, we badly need frankness and blunt no nonsense bullshit talk instead of our allegedly famous docility and hospitality. we need less of sensitivity and more of straight talk and nothing is personal attitude.
It is ingrained in pinoy society to avoid confrontation as much as possible, even if contradictions are brewing right to the rim, we always smile and say 'its ok' is just idiotic and then back stab on the side as a payback. nothing personal in my case but a general observation on how contradictions always play out in our society. No one can take their word for it as body language probably speaks more than what people actually say.
i would love to pay someone to stand and listen as i'd blurt out my irritation in tourette's mode.
all you need to pay me is a visit. ayt?! 